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Sabtu, 11 Februari 2012

The Story of My Struggle - Part 23

I realize that revenge is swirling in my heart can make me sick. Over the last six years I lived in the City of AB, I suffer from gout pain, to last for approximately one year. Once I was sick healed, and I suffer from allergies for about a year. Almost every day I was complaining of pain. Fatigue. Every wake up, my body was sore and stiff. I'm sick, but my husband and I pay less attention. Almost every weekend, He returned home to her parents.
One day, when my husband would go to the doctor to check his blood tension. Immediately I wanted to also see a doctor, after I checked, I was suffering from diabetes. When I was sick, it was my revenge on my three younger brothers and my mother-in-law heightened even churned, even though my mother-in-law had died. I wanted to shout to the Lord She begged to be resurrected from the grave. She has never apologized to me until she died.
From the beginning I married my husband, they did not like me, because I am not a working woman who can make money. They do not know my strengths. Because they are blinded her eyes. They do not give priority to moral and value inner beauty in a woman. They assumed that a woman working in government agencies, it can hold the degree of his family.
At the time I was newly married, I do not know the habits of their daily lives. So that my actions, there is added that has made them not like me. Though only a trivial problem. But they love to show their hatred to me. After a shower in the morning, I put on makeup with a thin outward appearance. I wish I looked like my husband, but their desire after I wake up, straight to the kitchen.
During the age of two years of our marriage, we do not have children. And we've consulted a gynecologist. But to no avail. Therefore my husband consulted by telephone with Mr. Susetyo wire. He lived in Surabaya and time, we lived in the City PunBB. Previously, we had come to his house at the time we were newly married. He said that I was fine, but I have the massage on the parts below the belly button because my uterus is left twisted.
On 25 September 1995, we moved to the city of BM. At about the end of the month November 1995, I, my husband went to town and M Kadiri. We stayed for three days in the House of Mr. Wagisan. The next morning we went to Surabaya to meet with Mr. Susetyo. He is an expert masseuse, and He had suggested that the pda part of my stomach below the navel massaged my uterus to correct the twist. For the advice, so we went there. Got there at about 7 pm. We were surprised, when one of his sons said that Mr. Susetyo had died about a month ago.
The death of Mr. Susetyo has made us sad. Then Mr. Wagisan suggested to us that we go to town Baron. There was a man who is smart and treat any disease. For suggesting, then we went there to meet the man. He got home, we entered the room and sat in the chair. Before starting treatment, we were told to pray. After that, He massaged the back of my waist, with a tool made of glass and shaped tube.
On the next day we went home, got home at about 7 pm. Before entering the house, I say hello, "Assalam Alaikum." From the outside I open the door and we went, and mother-in-law picked me up and said with a somewhat angry tone, "Runtang-Runtung ...!" I mean, is there passage and was always involved. Should be as a mother who are elderly, just to be a loving person with the answer, "Wa'alaikum greetings". His attitude has made me hurt and M, we cried and hugged each other.
On the next day, we were packing to go home. At that time, M together with my mother-in-law, was chatting in the back room, but I have absolutely no idea what they are talking about, because when I was dressed up in the front room. After we finished packing, we leave home. Back home, M told me about my mother-in-law. M's shoes when it is damaged, because the adhesive peel. Therefore M fixing spikes to wear shoes with shoe glue.
That morning, my mother-in-law I was also hurt the feelings of M. Perhaps, she worried about her son or my husband would give the money to M. They are not willing, if I give something to her husband. She asked in a tone of cynical M, "What can you buy shoes?" Then M replied, "Yes it is, most Rp.25.ooo" She asked, "What is your own house?" M replied briefly: "Yes! "I mean, she asks about the house where our parents.
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Rabu, 01 Februari 2012

The Story of My Struggle - Part 22

 Very shameful disgrace re-test the hardness of my heart. I do not think SNGi, have committed adultery with a man who was a member of his family own. The man is a brother-in-law of late Sudigno, her husband. He was named Warto, work as a truck driver at the company lifter cane sugar factory. Were they ashamed commit adultery with his own family members. But according to SNGi recognition, that Warto often go into his room through the window and always threatened with a knife every request to have sex. But in the end SNGi like it.
Infidelity is news to be heard by the Kayah, his wife Warto. Up to a quarrel, which makes the surrounding residents and the police intervene to make a peace treaty. But after that, they repeated their argument. Until very hate makes Kayah SNGi. So when SNGi was walking alone, suddenly Kayah shew chili that has been pounded into her eyes, but no luck about it because SNGi wearing glasses.
According to my thinking, that the deed is done Zina Warto SNGi with nothing to do with the threat Supardi. He was the mastermind. With the power of black science, he was able to make one's lost her mind and consciousness, so that person can obey even be controlled remotely. Warto SNGi and made like each other and created a turbulent lust arise, until there is adultery without having a sense of shame.
They have made fornication putrin SNGi son and mother and father-in-law became increasingly hated. Especially after Kayah died of heart illness. He could not think straight until at last he himself is suffering and regret having been evicted by neighborhood residents. And also expelled by his own son and daughter. Now she lives in a house a relic of our parents and they were married in an Islamic manner without the certificate.
SNGi bring the youngest of his sons. Now his son had died about 5 years ago. He died of cancer menderia lymph nodes. She was sick since she was a baby and about 4 months old. According to his testimony that when she is pregnant with her son, she had tried to abort her fetus by drinking a concoction of herbs that can make the body feel warm.
On Sunday, Monday evening, April 17th, 2006, about 01.00, I contemplated my life's journey. Remembering back to my childhood. Up to remember Supardi crime that has made my family's life more miserable. I do not accept and I am not satisfied until the Lord gave him a sense of punishment bagia pain and fear. I want God Almighty, changed into a dog Supardi body, human heads. But God does not want it.
That night my anger peaked. Then I took a deep breath, deep, and I hold in the chest, while I say to myself, surah Al-Fatihah verse 4, "God who controls the Day of Judgement." Surah Ya-Sin And verse 32, "Behold, all the affairs if God requires all sesuatnya, God just said * Be *, then there, "while my right hand corner of the mattress wringing, wringing my genital Him. I twist and I pull-pull. Then my heart was ripped to shreds and his heart. After that, I spend my breath.
On Friday, April 28th, 2006, SNGi came to my residence. In the living room, we sat down and he told me about an incident that had just experienced by Supardi. According to the story that Supardi has experienced incredible pain in her genitals. He was on his stomach on the bed and kicked and screamed, holding his genitals. In saying, "If you will die, yes die, now dead, ya die tomorrow! But do not made me sick like this! "Then he got up and vomited blood.
When it feels panic SNGi and M and M said, "Surely the menyantet Titi Ma'am." Then SNGi replied, "No way Ma'am Titi, he was not able menyantet." M replied, "Mba Titi was the rich, must be purchased. "Then SNGi said," No way Titi Ma'am! He had a compassionate nature. "Again and again accused the MBA Titi M, M said," Surely that's menyantetnya Titi Ma'am! Because I have a dream to see Ma'am Titi wore white clothes and his eyes are horrible. "
Supardi went looking for something unusual objects used as mediators for menyantet. She searched into every corner of the room, under the mattress and under the bed, but he did not find anything. I am surprised and I asked the SNGi, "When did it happen?" And he replied, "On Sunday, Monday evening, approximately more than 10 days ago." I said to justify, "that's right. On Sunday, Monday evening, at about 4:00 AM, I was angry at Supardi withstand stress. "He said," Yes, exactly at 12:45 AM "
In SNGi, I tell you what I have done the same time as adverse events that befall Supardi. Since I was a teenager, I've done the punishment on those who have hurt me. The first person I hokum is SNG. The first incident, I imagine as if he had a stomach ache. Not long after, he suffered from abdominal pain. The second incident, I like piercing eyes, his eyes became strangely cross-eyed. I feel sorry, then I treated him with spiritual power.
I did not realize, even I believe that I have found inner strength and mind that I can use to persecute those who have hurt me. But I have a patient nature, so I do not own way, except if the anger I've reached the limit of the depth of my heart until I can not stand it any longer restrain anger, I just remove my negative energy while careful to say the words anathema.
My anger can arise due triggered by a crime committed by people in the name of Islam, when I saw the news on TV, about the members (the Free Aceh Movement) which has been burning school buildings and other public facilities. I was very angry, he says that Islam is peaceful or happy? Why do they like to ruin? In fact they like to kill? I hate them, and I prayed, "O God, to those disasters Timpakanlah the Most Powerful earthquake!"
I was surprised when I heard and saw the news about the earthquake and tsunami in Aceh. I do not know, there is or has nothing to do with the words of my heart, at the time before and after the natural disaster. On Monday pounds, dated October 11th, 2002, Sata sleep and my heart says, "Judgement is near, but somehow when it's time. They will be afraid to see the face of God. "God is All knowing everything that was born and hidden. But in kalimmat, the Lord said, "But I do not know when."
The existence of the disaster, made me think and ask God, "Is anything to do with my prayers are prayed to God?" These words of my heart the day after the tsunami, in a period less than one week there are four words my heart on my confessions : "You do not know who I am! I It's Mayor! You do not know who I am! I This is the Prophet! You do not know who I am! I Am Queen! All bow to me! "Four admission, was not my confession. My desire is only one, I want to be channeling the treasures of God.
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