The Story of My Struggle Part 41 - The Attempting to Assassin My Father

At the beginning of each month, my father and my mother, together with the foremen and their wives went to the village of Pangkah, to take their salary money, and also all of their wives joined in Dharma Wanita meetings. They went walking along the path in the woods that way up and down and winding. If it rains the course muddy and slippery. And also, they have to cross the river that sometimes floods and with the heavy current. They walked tens of kilometers away in the until the village of Jatilaba. Then ride tricycles or wagon to the village Pangkah.

The women were gathered in the meetings and finished roughly around 04.00 PM. Before they went home, they first shopped somethings for souvenirs for their families, who in the house. Then their were went home. They arrived home roughly around 09.00 PM. An assortment of souvenirs usually food brought by my mother and father, among other pastry bread, milk , sardines, corned beef, and others. All of that is a joy for us.

Our family lived in the village Wrayan for approximately seven years. There we have experienced a terrifying event. Because we could have been a murder victim. The event roughly around 02.00 AM. Usually on every night, our family is guarded by two foremen. But that night, before it, my father had told the two foreman guards, not to have in watch. Because that night, the father felt sorry for them, feeling cold and surrounded by lots of mosquitoes.

That night my brother, Setyo Nur Haryanto, was sleeping in the living room lined mat, without lights. While on our front porch, given the lighting, a lantern lights. A few hours later, from the glass window, my brother noticed there was a shadow of the person standing in front of the front porch. Therefore , SN Heryanto feel suspicious, then get up and walk, he crawled, leading to the father's room to wake him up. Then the father told us to hide under the bed. My father and SN Heryanto stalking out of the house, holding a gun, a Mauser rifle, ready with firing position.

Outside the house, the father did not see the shadow of a suspicious person. But, the father noticed some people, seen from a little distance away, people were walking on the trail, which trail decreases towards in the front of our house. They carry the torch and whip in hand, they drove some cows to be sold to the market or anywhere else. SNH father and ventured out of the house. In the dark of night, father and brother go while holding a flashlight, heading home to the foreman, who was named Tanya. There are someone stayed at home, 3 foremen, among others named Mr. Sarwo, Mr Suherman, and Mr. Tasmun. They were informed about the incident, which had just occurred. Then, they tell the other foreman, Mr. Na'an.

The next day, in the village of Djatinegara being stirred by the news of my father meninggalny. The news made ​​my sister Hastuti Sri Nur, who lives with her husband in Djatinegara, crying. He thought that the father had actually died, because they were killed. Until she and her husband went to look at us. They were surprised when she met our father was still alive, and all members of the family in good health. We are very grateful to God for his protection over, he survived.

The incident, involved unscrupulous by a district leader and subdistrict military commander ( Commander of Military Region ). They compromised with a colleague 's father, who was named Mr. Kartubi. They have stolen the teak wood in forest areas under the control of my father. They feel shame and fear of severe punishment sanctioned. Because of their evil deeds are known father. Thus, to cover thier actions, then they are going to kill my father. The event, an ordeal for our family.

Dad likes to tell about his experiences. Said that father, had once ambushed a truck carrying stolen teak wood, which is carried by individual soldiers. And when the father was about to arrest them, signs them as going against the my father. Father, skillfully and swiftly subdue them with only assisted by a foreman. Then the father told them to run the truck to Perhutani office. In performing its duties, the father has the very high responsibility and dedication.

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The Story of My Struggle Part 40 - Remembering my childhood

I was born in the village Batarlong, Pemalang City, Indonesia, on July 4th, 1964. My education only up to high school. I was the 6th child of 7 siblings. With 2 men and 5 women. My mother named Siti Jaetun, she's just a housewife. My father, named Soetresno, and he worked in the forest department, the Police Chief Forest Resort. We stayed at the home office, in the village of Sokawati  Ampel Gading, Pemalang.

My mother is a widow with 3 daughters, when she married my father. And my father was a bachelor and he was 6 years younger than my mother's age. And my father said, that my father married my mother, then my mother wed her first daughter who was only about 15 years old. Her son-in-law he was the same age with my father. His name is Sudadi, and worked as a policeman.

To the right of where we lived, about 50 meters, there is a cemetery. In front of the house, across the street there is the flow of the river, for irrigation. In the river, I like to play alone, with the game "Lost in Wreck." On the surface of the water, on the river, I was on my back and relaxed, making me not sink, and I drifted to the extent of approximately 100 meters. Then I walked back to the river, and then I did the same thing again, until I get bored, and go home.

I play with this game, without being noticed by my parents. I felt there was someone who invited me to go to the river. But, once I got to the edge of the river, I do not see anybody. Finally, I played alone until finally I was scared to play again on the river, after I had a very scary thing, for me.

Initially, when I play a new one, then I want to repeat it again. I walked back in the middle of the river, against the current with the depth, the extent of my chest. When I stepped my foot, the sand on the bottom of the river, which is beneath me, come drifting on the water, up to 2 steps right and left foot. For the third time, my right foot stepped, I tried to calm sigh. Well, in that time, I do not know the God, and do not know how to pray. Because, I am still very small and young. I was 5 years old. I walked to the edge of the river and I went straight home.

There again, an incident that makes me feel very scared. One day I were asked by my older brother, SNH to swim in the river, the water is very swift. I tried to take a bath in the river banks. However, I float, I tried to hold on to the grass that grows on the banks of the river. However, every time I hold the grass, up to several times the grass was uprooted, because the weight of my body. And I want to requested a help with SNH, but himself is tried to fight against the current, and tried to went on the river bank .Until finally, I managed to climb to the top of the river bank.

In my memory, in 1969, our family moved into the house of my grandparents, from my mother's side. Over the past 2 years, our family lived in poverty suffer. Therefore, the father out of office as Chief of Police Forest Resort, because it has been vilified by his colleagues. Almost every day, I do not meet my mom and dad. Because my father was always went home at night, and my insomnia. My mother also almost every day is not at home. I do not know, if my mom goes somewhere .

Almost every day I do not eat, for breakfast. In one day, I ate only 2 times a day. I also, just eat with rice and a sambal ( chili sauce ). Sometimes, with paste ( paste is a gift from my grandmother's food. Petis is a spice commonly used deposition to fry chicken. ) My grandma getting paste it, from the woman 's sister -in-law, my mother had a restaurant business. She is a widow, and named Siti.

Stay at home grandparents , there is one neighbor , who was in the right, which is named Siregar , and served as Chief of Traffic Police . She has 3 boys , wife to both. The last child named Edi . Their families have arrogant nature , and likes to insult me , until I get angry and I fought with him until my clothes were torn and I went home in tears.

Both of my parents, not watching me, at all, and also my sister, Murti. Up to two times, I have made ​​a wretched mistake at her. I ever pushed her, when she crouched at the edge of a small bridge, until she fell down a small river in front of the house. And secondly, I 've hurt her nose with a razor, when I sharpen a pencil in front of his face.

My parents never noticed me and Murti. During the holiday, twice, I do not get new clothes. Until I feel sad , and very shy. I feel ashamed, at some my nephew, when they came home to my grandfather and grandmother. They wear new clothes and nice. But not for me. Although even when it was, I was only 6 years old, but I already have a feeling of shamefu;.

At the end of 1971, our family moved to the village Lobongkok, after my father declared by his officer that there was no evidence to make mistakes, and then my father again served as the Chief of Police Forest Resort. And finally, we stayed at the home office of the Department of Forestry. Then I moved school, and I was sitting in elementary school, grade 2. When I was in grade 2, I didn't up classes, to grade 3, once .

In early 1974 , my father moved to the village of Wrayan task , Tegal , and I come to move to a new school in the village Lebakwangi . I sat on the bench 4th grade . In my class there are only two female students , which my friend and one of my bench named Marwah . He does not like me , I am always sad , every time a Muslim subjects . I do not know if it was told to write or read Arabic . But he does not want to help me to answer the questions of religion .

In my class , there were two boys who hate me , named Slamet and Safari . However , there are also who love me , who named Hufron . I feel depressed , because in my class is the only one female student and lasted until I graduated from elementary school . I am depressed because they always call me as " Boy " repeatedly . I feel embarrassed , because the word " Boy " is the name of my dad's dog . Boy always accompany my father a foreman with the employees , each of my father patrolling the forest .

Just not one of my classes , which insulted me , but also other children . On the way home from school or leaving , sometimes there are children who call me , " Boy " . I did not dare turn in shame . They are also often said to me , " Your father often depriving sickle ... "

My father was often seize and confiscate weapons called sickle, from the hands of thieves that stealing teak tree, to be used as evidence.

In addition, also, my brother, SN Giharto often do evil to me. He was always mad at me if I came home ahead of him. Because he does not like when I first ate more than him.

He was not happy when I eat first, because he considers that the food provided for him was the rest of the food I eat. So he likes to hit my back, very hard. Although very ill, but I was trying not to cry. Useless, my mother and father did not punish him with punches anyway.

I never once saw my father angry and all the kids ran out of the house to avoid the wrath of my father. Usually the father can get angry if it is experiencing fatigue, after returning from patrol in the woods with walking up to tens of kilometers. Perhaps because my mother why less attention to my dad. Or are there other reasons unknown.

It may also be the father was in love with a widow named Halimah. She is the daughter of Mr. Tanya. Mr. Tanya himself offer his daughter to my dad. But my father did not respond to him. I never once saw Mr. Tanya and his friends playing a gambling card, in the home office where I live.

I often feel scared, when watching mom and dad fight each other. I 've seen the occasional quarrel between my father and my brother,  SN Giharto. When the SN Giharto went home to ask for money on my father. He went to town and he lived in a boarding house, ride in one family in the village Pangkah.

Almost every week, SN Giharto went home. Though father had given her lunch money for a period of one month. He was always fighting against my parents. When he dared to throw sharp objects, crescent, in a direction of my father, but didn't hurt father. Then he said, "Fortunately, not on your neck. If exposed, your head would be cut down...!!"

In early 1974, my father moved to the village of tasks Wrayan - Tegal. Our family at the home office that is located on top of the plateau, on the outskirts of the oak forest. The house, facing south. In addition to the house there is a footpath to the east, the road leading down to the road is quite wide and rocky. Everyday, there is only one vehicle that passed that way, and this way across the middle of the woods up and down, and also the winding.

In front footpath running up and down and also winding. The road from the south downhill, heading toward our home office, and curving toward the west. The road is a shortcut that connects the village Djatinegara and Jatilaba are quite crowded, and also headed to Slawi.

Every on Animal's Markering day, there are some people who herded cattle pass through the shortcut. Across the street, there are two shops, a place to sell sugar water drinks, from palm trees. Two of the sellers is an old woman, who was named Mrs. Wasi and Mrs. Mal .

Almost every afternoon, me and my older sisters, are like sitting on the front porch of the house. Sometimes, I play badminton and sometimes catching dragonflies and butterflies, together with my sister, Murti. We do not have any friends to play with together, because we live in a remote place and it was very quiet. It makes me sad.

Every morning and afternoon I only saw a few passers-by to the spring water, for bathing and washing their clothes. Spring is located in the valley in front of the house. Sometimes I also, used it to play in the spring. In addition, there are also people passing by to look for firewood in the forest.

I like to pay attention to people who are searching for firewood, and I imitate it. One day, I was playing alone in the house on the west side, there is plenty of dry wood were scattered. Then I took and I cut one by one. Until finally, my left hand fingers cut and bled a lot.

On weekends, at the end of the month, there are quite a lot of young men and girls through the trail, in front of our house. They are the students who attend Slawi and boarding there. They want to return to their respective homes.

One day, my second sister, SN Sriharti and SN Hastuti, get acquainted with some of the young men who happened to be in taverns, in front of our homes. The young man, is a newly graduated students high schools. One of them, someone loves SN Hastuti, he was named Sus Waluyo.

During dating, about 6 months, then SN Hastuti pregnant, had been pregnant for 3 months of age. Her Pregnancy makes us angry because my parents have to bear the shame. Pregnant before the official marriage is one thing that is very embarrassing thing, especially in the Country of Indonesia. Finally, in mid-1974, both of our parents wed them.

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The Story of My Struggle Part 39 - Dreams of 2006 until mid-2008 in Ajibarang City

I dream I said to someone " I want to say about me confessions in my dreams . But I was embarrassed , even though I'm in a dream . God gave me 4 degrees . I'm a prophet , I am a Prophet , I'm the mayor , and I was the Queen .... "

I dream of saying to a Muslim man . I said with a little snap as somewhat angry , " Islam yes Islam ! There is no flow , which is my Islamic right ! "

I dream of sewing thread seams apart . I sew , use a hand needle and my heart said , " To exercise patience .... "

I dream of saying to a Chinese woman , " said the Buddhist religion , why do you hate .... ? "

I dream to meet my dad , and he said to me in the Java language , and repeatedly . " Dick .... " That is , " sex " " male genitalia ... "

When I sleep , my heart said , " rank was exalted by God .... "

I dream of sitting on a high chair . I saw some women that were walking and talking about the young man who was making a statue of me , which is made ​​of stone . They 're making my nose shape . I walked over to them . And they said . " We will make you an angel , " Then I said , " I was given the title of God 4 . I'm a prophet , I am a Prophet , I'm the mayor , and I'm the queen . The prophet is not necessarily the Prophet , not necessarily mayor , not necessarily the Queen .... "

My dream was angry at a man , when in the village where my parents live . I said , "Everywhere , I hated ... ! Beware .... ! Screams of pain inner scream I'm biased volcano blow .... ! ! God ... ! God ...! God ....! "

I dream of saying to a man , " God gave me a miracle . Blue sky at the time I was exposed to witchcraft . I saw two kites white twins when I was on my way . I rosary necklace when I maghrib prayer ... "

I dream of drawing a circle in the sky and there is no line in the middle fingers . I see the numbers 2 and 8 , as well as other numbers , and also I did not get to see the words that say abaca . In addition, I saw my favorite food . Then I said to the guy , " Look ! I was there favorite foods , Tempe , Tofu , Jengkol , Petai . "

I had a dream , I was angry as he lifted my hand straight forward with the fingers of both hands gripping my stiff , I said with a loud voice , " I'm your black magic ! " " I'm evil , but the evil I was , just the bad guys ! " Then I said, " Well, it's okay .... "

I dreamed I saw a few people , male students was joking , and I said to myself , " What the students should not be kidding ... ? "

I dreamed of a man said angrily , " I'm going to move to Buddhism , if Islamic law thought .. ! "

I had a dream , I was mad at my brother who looks dull , and I said , "No wonder ..! Because you are lazy and slouchy ...! What you do not believe me this prophet ? I am a Prophet ? Better believe , yes than you wretch ! Prophet Muhammad received revelations through dreams while not ... ? What God disguised as a man ... ? "

When I sleep , I hear the sound of a creature , which is said in the Java language , " Turu ... " meaning sleep .

I had a dream , I said , "If you want durable and beautiful , meditation . "

I had a dream , a woman told about my dream , that I saw the picture of me in the sky of a series of things that painted the stars . Then I look at the sky with my index finger , pointing to the top , I said , " Look at that sky ... Look , it's a picture of me . "

I dreamed I saw rocks falling and tumbled from the sky , and I saw a strip of land crumbling cliffs . I tried to take shelter under the trees . In front of me there was a man who deflect rocks toward him . Then I said , " The stones were falling from the sky , because I figure statue is being built , which is made of the stars . Odor - stone was falling because a lot of people who do not believe ... "

I dream of saying , " My religion Confucianism, as long as not worshiping the gods .

I dreamed of seeing the stars in the sky glow, light and time is not blinking , so that the sky is blue and the more modestly , down close to me , at the top . I saw a white cloud behind there is a blue globe . It makes me scared and I called many times , the word " Mom ... ! " In the sky I saw a boy who took a chunk of land many times and dropping chunks of land in my direction , but none of the about me .

I dreamed of meeting with two young students. One young man showing his genitals were for seed corn . I said , " I have a brother ungodly . " My thanks to my sister , " Do you still not believe ? God gave me 4 degrees . I'm a prophet , I am a Prophet , I'm the mayor , I'm the queen . Blue sky when I fasted for 6 months , and when I got witchcraft . " While I was looking for a fabric that is blue , I said , " It was like this ... " I also see kites twin white ... " Then I went , and the young man called me to ask for my address . I was surprised when suddenly a young man who only kissed my cheek . I do not want to and I said , "I am old ... " I saw the young man 's left hand , stump . Then I said , begging God many times , "Bless this man ... Oh God ... " Then I saw the sky in the west there is a drawing hand , and along with it , it creates one hand and then converges on the stump of his men .

When I fell asleep , my heart said , "Better believe , rather than harm ... " The words of my heart , because I do not believe in my own dreams , and of the confessions of me in my dream , that I got 4 degrees degrees of God .

I dream , I met with the mother -in-law . He told me to sew 2 mukena ( clothes for prayer , for women ) that dijadika 1 mukena . And when I sew , the needle suddenly broken . Then thread the needle that is white , I leave it to my husband , and I had to follow my mother -in-law and said , " You despise me because the battery , not an employee , not ... ? "

When I sleep , I woke up because I heard a voice blast shocked .

When I sleep , my heart said , " Mandatory disembahyangi ... " The point is , everyone should respect me as a lover of God .

When I sleep , my heart said , " Great expectations ... " That is my hope to lead the human race , in order to live in peace without a war .

I had a dream , telling a man about my dreams . I saw the sky bersap -sap , and the sap filled every image I . Then I said quietly , saying to myself, "I'm the Queen ... I'm so ... I'm so queen queen ... " When I look at the sky , I see my face , painted from a series of stars . I also saw a light that runs form the circular line . "If you do not believe , what you like , I curse you ... ? "

I dreamed I saw a mosque and a fence made ​​of gold . In the fence , a lot of people were standing in line , and I said to myself , "Here is no idol Muhammad . " My point is , I was an idol which is really commendable .

When I sleep , my heart said , " Great expectations ... " My hope for peace and peace for all people in the world .

When I sleep , my heart said , " Sun Rise ... "

I dreamed of walking and met a woman . He said to me " How biased , white earth .. ? So I forgot ... ? " The point is , he likens me is the earth .

When I sleep , my heart said , " This news is sanctioned ... " That is news that will undoubtedly truth , and give rise to a polemic . Previously I thought and asked God , " Is it true that Prophet Muhammad is the perfect moral ... ? Is not he lost the war , to fight his sexual lust .. ! So that he has more than one wife ... ? "

I had a dream , I said , " I embrace all religions , Alla gave me 4 degrees degrees . I'm a prophet , I am a Prophet , I'm the mayor , and I'm the queen ... "

When I sleep , my heart said , " Do not count the cat hair .... "

I had a dream , I said to my son , Ajisaka LB , " God gave me 4 degrees , " Then the son , said , "The title prophet , is not it ... ? " Then I said, "I am the Prophet , I am a Prophet , I was guardian , and I was the Queen . Sri Nur Nastiti SAW . "

I dreamed I saw the sky , there are pictures of the eye . And it is a woman's eyes are very beautiful .

I dreamed I was in a very high plateau land , and I saw water flowing and I was very scared , in case of flooding . Then I screamed hysterically , calling the name of God , " Allah ....... !"

When I sleep , my heart said , " I have the talent to do evil . "

I had a dream , I did not feel strong enough to withstand suffering mental illness , which I experienced , so I screamed , " Allaah ....! "

When I sleep , my heart said , " Lying on Muhammad , Lying to the commendable ... " Previously , because I was thinking about the trilogy and I think it's wrong , then I say to my two sons .

When I sleep , my heart said , " Design kingdom .... "

I had a dream , I said to the Chinese , " I love meditation , I embrace all the teachings of religion .... " Then he said , " Doing good deeds is very ... "

I had a dream , I was angry with a man and I said to threaten , "Do you want , I curse you to be a dog ... ? Like a brother -in-law I ... ? Condemnation of a guardian will always be granted by God ... ! "

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