The Story of My Struggle - Part 14

--> This is the choice of my dreams in September 2001 to June 2002:
My dream to see the barren nature, and I saw a human-faced bats. And my heart said, "The vampire has arrived in Jakarta."
Dream I saw two of the swing ride and 2 children swing the line of sight. And my heart says (in Javanese) "Keluargane arep in pipili Satan"
Dream I saw in the sky 2 adults and 2 children fighting teenagers also are fighting. And my heart said, "A fight with Master Teacher, Students by Students."
Dream I saw in the sky there are people stealing and robbing. And my heart said, "Cut off his hand one of them."
My dream to see ourselves wearing green dress and shawl, and my heart said, "I'm flying free."
At the time I sleep, I heard someone told me, "There must be a faculty assessment huh? In order not to regret. "
I dream to see the two white-tailed macaques are both located on the banks of the river and opposite. Which is opposite the eastern approach me, and then the monkey-naburkan sowing of rice yellow to get to the other side of the river. And my heart said, "This is for you, and this for me."
My dream to see the stars varying colors, and then assemble themselves in a semicircle. The series stars dropped down and fell into my hands, then a series of stars is I put it with my hands stretched out. Surprisingly, the series stars are turned into a rainbow-colored scarf, and my heart said, "Nyi Roro Kidul shawl."
My dream is to see the world like coming to an end. I saw the waves is very large, I walked into the deserted market. I saw a man, he's my supernatural spiritual teacher. He sat on the bench waiting for me. I went and met an angel who also was waiting for me. I would sit at his feet, but the angels do not want to. The angel took out a white paper and read it. I heard a voice chanting the verses of the Qur'an.
I dream of being in a room that was at a meeting held the clergy. I sat in the front row and I was the only woman. In front of me there is an ecclesiastic who was lecturing, I said to him, "A good leader is God." At the same time, there was a man about to speak to Mr. Alim scholars looked toward the man. At that time, I see above there is a black cap rock that drops down straight into my body through the head. I lay my body on the table, as I said many times without any noise due to difficulty speaking "incarnated Bung Karno." Then I realized and knew I was sitting next to a guy and I said "I am an option, should not talk so much ? "
I dream in the middle of the forest, I ran because of fear in the chase of two bats. I repeatedly called "God" for help. Then came two white doves flew toward me and turned into two beautiful angel, angel one adult and one child. The second angel brought me to fly, and before I know I have been in a very tall tree. I saw one house and in front of the house, there is a long-haired man was standing. He admitted Gajahmada duke. I am not rude to be on top, then I fell down. Then he said to me, "What has been done evil to the family's Sp. ? Yes, I'll be there! "
I dream to be in a room. In these places, many men. They are sitting in school boarding school. I am sitting with a male leader of the boarding school, and he seemed about to do obscene to me. I am afraid he and his disciples to rape me. Then I look for reasons to be out of place. There are a student who came to help me and take me flying across the river that many crocodile. I saw someone who was helping people who are in the crocodile swallow. I took two pictures The clergy man, but I do not know who they are.
I dream of seeing in the sky and white clouds shaped arab "GOD". The letter went downstairs and into my body through the head. So that makes my body vibrate.
I dream to see the sky a little overcast and there was a flash of black. Then the black cloud is transformed into a white cloud, then changed again to green, then turns into an expanse of grass and beautiful flowers. I saw a bunch of flowers which the various colors fall from the sky and fell into my hands.
I dream with the power of heart and mind I can see Heaven. In Heaven I see the clear water that was in a lot of sandy shore. The beautiful sand because sand is a sparkling diamond.
I dream to see the two bags of one original and one not. The original bag contains one gem, then I rubbed the stone. With the way the swab, then exit two genie. I asked the second genie, with the same question, "What's your name?"; Which one replied, "Servant of Noble", then I asked the other, "Who namau?"; The other replied, "Dewi Sri" . And my heart Says  "Hinduism and Islam will unite."
I dream my husband and I were in the house in the sky. I saw the sky above drops down to make me scared. When my hands reach out, the sky was like a sheet of clear plastic with no color.
At bedtime my heart said, "There will come a Prophet of Women."
I dream the stairs into the church. Inside the church, I saw many people who were praying in a way prostrate, And I saw a statue of the cross without Jesus.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 13

On Saturday, 10 September 2001 at around 3:40 PM, I received word from my husband's sister in law that my man, Sudigna died of traffic accidents. I instinctively felt weak. I do not believe that he had died. It turns out what I think that I will receive bad news, finally does happen. The sound is in fact true ravens brought news of death.

That day I have not been able to mourn, because I still limp. The next Sunday, with a rented car with driver, my family and go wake. Our first stop in the village of Pangkah, in private homes that have not been so perfect and yet Mr. Sudigna family occupied. Home Office in the City Slawi. There we did not meet with his family. His wife and children went to take care of accident insurance.

There, we did not meet with his family, but we met with a guard office where the late Father Sudigna work. We talked for a while, standing in the yard office. We talked about the events of the accident.We then proceeded to the City of Pekalongan, to meet Mr. HDF, but we did not meet with him, then we went home. 
On the way home, after the evening we meet obstacles. On the hills along the road came a very thick fog. Headlights could not penetrate the thick fog. Therefore, my husband got out of the car to guide the driver to drive with caution, because the right of the road, there is a very deep abyss. Finally, we got home around 10:00 PM 
God gave me instructions through dreams. If there are things I do not know, then I think. As in the time before and after I was exposed to the influence of witchcraft.

 The following are my dreams while staying in the city of BM.I thought and said to myself "If the Earth is constantly spinning? Later how to write numbers annually, if run out of numbers to count? "Oddly enough when I sleep soundly, my heart said," The sun will be extinguished within 3 Billion Years again ".At the time I thought, 'Oh my God, why hast thou given me continuous test of life? "So that night I was dreaming. I dream seeing heavens one above another. I look at every level of the sky filled with pictures of me. I had long hair and a four-handed. There are pictures and drawings kite cat. I see the sky every level, from first to third, I said "I became Queen, I became Queen, I became Queen." 
"My dream is running and I crossed those beggars dressed in rags, and their groups." 
"The dream I saw a white cloud in the sky there is a form of exquisite carvings sting." 
"My dream to see the sky there are clouds shaped white stripes song rhythm tone musical notes." 
"Dreams in the sky there is a white cloud-shaped gate and the royal throne of Kings, beneath which there are 
two rows of people who were sitting cross-legged with each other face to face." 
"My dream was frightened to see the sky at the bottom." (Twice a dream) 
"My dream see the smoke swirling down from the sky. From the smoke, get out a lot of very scary-faced 
demon. " 
"The dream I saw a large spherical planetary objects that glow so bright my eyes, and the ball fell in front of 
me." 
"My dream to see the sky there was a picture of me holding my son, Yoga Brahmacharya Kumaraseta." 
"My dream as he lightly ran my hands holding a rope from the sky with followed by a man behind. Then my heart said, "Holding the Rope of Allah" ...


 
Dream after I was married, and lived with families in the city of Banyumas, among others: 
"My dream to see the sky there is a large picture of a man Long-haired and dressed in red. Images are moved from the east towards the west. " 
"My dream to see the sky there is a light that continues to go down on my head, and the light is radiating to my right hand. Then I saw in the palm of my right hand there are bubbles of water. " 
"My dream to see the hills. Then my heart said, "It was a journey of Prophet Muhammad" 
"My dream to see the sky there are many islands. Then I said, "The Prophet Muhammad will descend to earth to help his people." 
"My dream walking on the sky, and I crossed the street with people carrying a stretcher, in which there are people lying down because of illness. Then my heart said, "The Prophet Muhammad is sick, will be treated." 
"My dream was given a small package by someone who I could not see his face. Before he left, and then he said, "This titipannya Prophet Muhammad." 
"My dream to see the sky there is light, the light continues to come down and get into my body. Then my heart said, "Candidates for the prince." 
"My dream to see the Moon is very close to the earth. I look at the Earth with the Moon, there was an astronaut flying. Down toward the earth. He fell in front of me and asked, "Where torn white paper ?..." Instantly, I pointed flakes berserakkan white paper on the ground. Then I took it one by one, and I gave her the Flakes.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 12

From the beginning I was bored reading it, just like when I read Scripture. Both these books are equally difficult for me to understand. To my mind, that God is one. But in the translation of the book of the Qur'an there is the word "We", not "I". We are the Compound and the word "I" is "Single".
I also can not understand the verses in the Gospels. Because there are "three gods" to be in worship. For me God is a substance that stands alone. No beginning and no end. Prophet Jesus Christ, Mother Mary and the Angels are God's creation. They can not create anything.
Although I am tired of reading the translation of the Qur'an, but I tried to read it through. For me any clues of the Book is not important. Course of my life either, quite in the given advice by my parents. Man's moral perfection is not in the measure of the ability of a person's mind to memorize the verses of the Qur'an, and other books.
Since adolescence, I was able to think about the truth. The important thing my life does not harm others. And I tried to be a human being useful for many people. I always remember the death, old age and illness, natural disasters and calamities vehicle traffic accident or because of other consequences.
More than a month I suffered because I could not sleep. Until my eyes sore, having to fight the sleep I stay awake. I am so tired my body and soul. Until I lost weight, but a sense of revenge, the hurt that makes me have a passion to fast for more than 6 months.
Every evening ahead of time, I became increasingly frightened. So I rang the voice guidance cassette tape with verses of the Qur'an, although I do not know what that means. After I finished the prayer in the evening, then I read the translation of the letter Ya'sin. But all that does not make the Devils stopped bothering me. 

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