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Sabtu, 21 Januari 2012

The Story of My Struggle - Part 21

I used to feel hurt when my husband's face that can not be said to be soft and romantic. I do not like the tone a shout. But although he was a bit grumpy, he never hit me. Except in our two sons. I really can not bear to see him until I yelled that he did not slap or whip again. I cried because I really love them.
In financial terms, my husband set it up. For all their daily needs and also needs other than basic needs, he's a bear. Setipa months, I was given money by 10% of the amount of income that he received. The money, I fully tubes for preparation at any time there is my brother who needs help. If I have given aid or giving money for something, I'm always honest with him.
My husband used to be less of a concern to me, unless I asked for it. When I suffered from pain, he did not invite me to see a doctor. He was more attention to his brother. When there brother He is sick, he immediately visited him and helped with money and objects. Though your life He is not in poverty. In addition, my vengeance to those who hurt me.
Cause my heart hurt, the source is not from within my family alone. But also from the association with the neighbors and one woman in the Organization of femininity. I do not like when assembled with them. Because I do not feel comfortable while hanging out with people who are ignorant spiritual. Among them there are arrogant because he has a big salary income. There is also a proud because her husband's office.
Here is my experience when I hang out with the wife of fellow employees in the "State-Owned Enterprises" at the agency P. At a meeting on Saturday in September 2007. When that part of mothers had gathered. I saw the UW's mother came up with a private drive. Then I greeted her and hugged her, kissing her right cheek and left. But he's cool attitude with a smile of pride.
After the evening, I along with my husband sitting on the porch behind the house. I tell you about Mrs. UW hubris on my husband. Then He said, "Let them." Kind words are always spoken briefly to him, If I tell you about the bad attitudes of others. Therefore God has always guided me, and when I sleep, my heart said: "Only I had the right arrogant!"
There was a mother came to visit my residence. He knocked on the door, pressing his face into the glass to look into the house. At that time I was relaxing on the floor near the bedroom door. Then I entered the room and change into something decent and I immediately went out to meet the guest, but he was gone. When my husband came home for lunch, he said that Madame had come to his office, but now he's gone home.
The next day Saturday, I attended a regular meeting, held at the office of Mr. S. I was surprised when Mrs. S started the meeting by saying, "Pretty-pretty but Tulalit, yes mothers as well?" He's as chairman of the organization Dharma Wanita, should be a good figure by saying "Good Afternoon" or greetings. Tulalit supposing a weak battery, turn off and on, and die. He hates me because he thought I would not want to meet with him.
Mrs P was a teacher who taught in elementary school. Her husband worked as a guard at a place my husband works in the city of BM. At a regular meeting ongoing reporting readings from each section. When I'm thinking, I was surprised and nervous, heard my name called because it was my turn on. Then I stood up and delivered my report. Once completed, then Mrs P said, "Ladies and gentlemen, I apologize for my careless attitude." That is not careless or disrespectful.
Mrs EU is an employee owned company similar to where my husband worked. He was very fanatic with the teachings of Islam. But she is very nosy. She likes taking care of other people's private affairs. Nature subject to change. Sometimes he can say sarcastically, if I did not like my appearance and my style is fashionable. But at some point, he pretended to praise me. His speech was made smooth and polite. They are the ones who are not savvy in the spiritual.
Most of those who behave badly are those who are Muslims. Their attitude is not friendly, not polite, but its easy to feel pure envy. They like to instill hatred against the people who have different beliefs. At first I thought if I dressed Muslims, certainly many people who love me. But instead of people other than Islam so afraid of associating with me. I do not need to be praised by men. For me the main, God loves me.
In my opinion that a woman dressed in a closed does not guarantee the woman had an unwavering faith. I prefer to see women dressed in stylish and fashionable, rather than looking at Muslim women who dress closed, unless it is to cover the shortcomings of his body. When I dressed Muslim, I feel so hot to go out a lot of sweat and even sometimes arise red spots that itch. I felt uncomfortable, makes me stress.
The existence of various kinds of problems I had, made me almost crazy. I want to rebel soul. The anger and hatred made me not stand burdened by a variety of clothing and jewelry that sticks in my body. But I was still conscious and still able to think clearly. So I did not until my clothes off. I usually just crying and begging God to glorify God in my life.
My revenge on the SP (Supardi) getting stronger, after I knew he was repeating his crime. He has deceived the SNG. He was persuaded to try SNG duck livestock business. SNG until finally persuaded by rayuannya and give him money. That money is money from retirement savings. Cunning, He did not buy the young ducks, but ducks his own Supardi prosuktif less because it is old.
Cattle business was handed over to Supardi duck. But the profits on a monthly basis is uncertain. With the reasons that many of the ducks are not laying eggs, because the food is not nutritious. So need funds to buy food. Though the cause is not from food, but because the duck was old age. Finally, SNG decided to sell all his ducks.
The amount remaining for change that SNG received less than half of the amount of money capital. SNG felt he had been deceived by Supardi, which made him very angry and said the harsh words. Bastard, bastard, fraudsters, and Dogs. The words made threatening Supardi said, "I can make your family a big shame!" He likes to threaten the league with the devil and the like, to make damned in others.
Problem after problem that I face always came and went, kept me thinking about this life. Less than one year my father died, then the test comes back. Our family mourn for having lost my sister-in-law. Fatayati, his wife SNH. He died on Thursday 24 April 2004. He died suffered from diabetes and kidney failure.
By renting a car, we went to the wake. We arrived at his house, it turns out he was buried. SNH said, that his wife before she died several times in a coma for 3 days. Approximately one week before he died he said to his neighbors who happened to be gathered, that soon he would die, so he apologized. He was a noble-hearted woman.


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Minggu, 08 Januari 2012

The Story of My Struggle - Part 20

There is one more that I still do not know about the witchcraft events that have been experienced by Sp. I remember when I got the influence of witchcraft, Father Syd (Suyud) gives me so that I burn incense in order to restore the spell to people who have made it. But he suggested, indirectly I do, because at that time coincided with the fasting month of Ramadan. I am afraid to take vengeance on the sacred month. But I did it in the following month.

What kind of events, I do not know because I did not ask has it. I remember, once M said that the demons run amok in his house. I can imagine the incident. It must be very scary and make M very scared. Including Sp himself must deal with the hassles of. That's a lesson for him who likes to play with me, who live in the path of righteousness. Though he himself suggested in M ​​that do not play with me.


Although incidents of witchcraft was almost a year has passed, but I'm still scared. If I heard the sound of ambulance sirens and police car sirens. Because I thought the voice was the voice of an angel trumpet in the ring as a sign that Judgement Day has come. I fear going after my dream two times listening to the sound of the trumpet sounds, When I still lived in the city of BM (Banyumas).


I dream to see heaven, a heavenly situation is very clear and beautiful. Inhabited by many people dressed in white. Then I saw the nature of Hell that the situation was arid, rocky hills a lot and no trees. I'm with M under the rock which rises towards the horizontal. I took the hands of M to take her out by saying, "Let's go. Hell will collapse. "Along with it, I heard the sound of trumpets.


I dream to see the gates of hell and the angels guard the gates of hell. I saw a woman named Sejatii. He carried a notebook Amal good and bad. The notebook will be checked by the angel. Along with it, I heard the sound of trumpets. Sejatii is my neighbor, in the village where my parents lived. She likes to do bad on me.
 

Since I got the spell, I became a dual personality. I'm easy to hate and love others. I became irritable person. Previously, I was the one who easily forgive the mistakes of others. However, now changed. All the mistakes of others on me, so finally sprung in my mind. In fact I easily furious and hate when I see and hear a variety of crimes.

I am easily hurt, if there are people who do not polite to me and if anyone says in a voice loud. When I'm angry, I would cry and called the name "God" with a loud voice. I get upset if my child does not obey my request. As a result I grew up hatred revenge to all those who've hurt me, including my husband. My revenge is very strong to lead to polygamy and the teachings of Islamic law.


Pressure hatred in my heart sometimes pushing always makes me want to scream when angry. I've whipped my two sons but with lashes that stuck. Although I hold, but it makes my thighs two sons into the red. After that, I regret it for life. I am not the same with my husband in raising my two sons. My husband was very cruel time beat up two of my children by wearing sandals or hand.


I always remember God when I'm angry. Therefore, I cried until I found it hard to breathe. I was panting breath until my eyes bulging like my spirit will come out and I always say, "God! Tinggikanlah derajatku as high, and give glory to my life with semulia-glorious! "My heart is sick when I remember people saying that I was crazy.


Feelings of anger and hate that I stand to make my body shake. The growing sense of resentment not only when I feel tired, but can also arise if I am offended by the attitude and the words of my husband or my two sons. When YBK stubborn, makes me angry and hating life. Then my right hand to grasp and squeeze and said, "If the Earth was small, I squeezed!" What maybe I'm crazy?


Almost every day I feel lonely, even though I'm busy doing something. Even when I was in a crowd, in a place where entertainment and shopping. I feel more sad when I heard the sound of gamelan music, Javanese gending. That feeling makes my appetite was not excited at the time of the request must serve her husband having sex.


I often feel the emptiness until the moment I was walking my feet feel light, what more when I'm fasting. I have often wondered and asked myself, "Life is for what ...? What do you want? And going where?? What in Heaven there is a sense of fatigue and boredom of life ...? Wealth and property that I have not been able to make my life happy, if my brother still living in poverty, and even some mentally ill ... "




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