The Story of My Struggle - Part 20

There is one more that I still do not know about the witchcraft events that have been experienced by Sp. I remember when I got the influence of witchcraft, Father Syd (Suyud) gives me so that I burn incense in order to restore the spell to people who have made it. But he suggested, indirectly I do, because at that time coincided with the fasting month of Ramadan. I am afraid to take vengeance on the sacred month. But I did it in the following month.

What kind of events, I do not know because I did not ask has it. I remember, once M said that the demons run amok in his house. I can imagine the incident. It must be very scary and make M very scared. Including Sp himself must deal with the hassles of. That's a lesson for him who likes to play with me, who live in the path of righteousness. Though he himself suggested in M ​​that do not play with me.

Although incidents of witchcraft was almost a year has passed, but I'm still scared. If I heard the sound of ambulance sirens and police car sirens. Because I thought the voice was the voice of an angel trumpet in the ring as a sign that Judgement Day has come. I fear going after my dream two times listening to the sound of the trumpet sounds, When I still lived in the city of BM (Banyumas).

I dream to see heaven, a heavenly situation is very clear and beautiful. Inhabited by many people dressed in white. Then I saw the nature of Hell that the situation was arid, rocky hills a lot and no trees. I'm with M under the rock which rises towards the horizontal. I took the hands of M to take her out by saying, "Let's go. Hell will collapse. "Along with it, I heard the sound of trumpets.

I dream to see the gates of hell and the angels guard the gates of hell. I saw a woman named Sejatii. He carried a notebook Amal good and bad. The notebook will be checked by the angel. Along with it, I heard the sound of trumpets. Sejatii is my neighbor, in the village where my parents lived. She likes to do bad on me.
 
Since I got the spell, I became a dual personality. I'm easy to hate and love others. I became irritable person. Previously, I was the one who easily forgive the mistakes of others. However, now changed. All the mistakes of others on me, so finally sprung in my mind. In fact I easily furious and hate when I see and hear a variety of crimes.

I am easily hurt, if there are people who do not polite to me and if anyone says in a voice loud. When I'm angry, I would cry and called the name "God" with a loud voice. I get upset if my child does not obey my request. As a result I grew up hatred revenge to all those who've hurt me, including my husband. My revenge is very strong to lead to polygamy and the teachings of Islamic law.

Pressure hatred in my heart sometimes pushing always makes me want to scream when angry. I've whipped my two sons but with lashes that stuck. Although I hold, but it makes my thighs two sons into the red. After that, I regret it for life. I am not the same with my husband in raising my two sons. My husband was very cruel time beat up two of my children by wearing sandals or hand.

I always remember God when I'm angry. Therefore, I cried until I found it hard to breathe. I was panting breath until my eyes bulging like my spirit will come out and I always say, "God! Tinggikanlah derajatku as high, and give glory to my life with semulia-glorious! "My heart is sick when I remember people saying that I was crazy.

Feelings of anger and hate that I stand to make my body shake. The growing sense of resentment not only when I feel tired, but can also arise if I am offended by the attitude and the words of my husband or my two sons. When YBK stubborn, makes me angry and hating life. Then my right hand to grasp and squeeze and said, "If the Earth was small, I squeezed!" What maybe I'm crazy?

Almost every day I feel lonely, even though I'm busy doing something. Even when I was in a crowd, in a place where entertainment and shopping. I feel more sad when I heard the sound of gamelan music, Javanese gending. That feeling makes my appetite was not excited at the time of the request must serve her husband having sex.

I often feel the emptiness until the moment I was walking my feet feel light, what more when I'm fasting. I have often wondered and asked myself, "Life is for what ...? What do you want? And going where?? What in Heaven there is a sense of fatigue and boredom of life ...? Wealth and property that I have not been able to make my life happy, if my brother still living in poverty, and even some mentally ill ... "



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