From the beginning of pregnancy until about three months of pregnancy. Every one to two hours, day and night, I experienced vomiting. My situation is weak, make me unable to work in home care jobs. I tell my state on M by sending a telegram. I intend to ask for help on she. But M, did not return via mail or via telephone.
Pregnancy until I entered the age of four months, I would occasionally throw up at night, but I still feel nauseated. Although my situation is very weak, but I tried to serve her husband. I continue to work to cook food to eat every day needs. At that time, I still hope that M will come to my residence. I hope she would come help me, so she wanted to serve my needs. Incidentally she has not been able to work to make money.
I walked up to the age of five months pregnant, I still hope she comes. I always love and hope she comes, until I heard the sound of each gate is opened, then I looked out of the house. But many times I was disappointed, because that comes not M, but a guard's office. Finally I came home my parents. I asked why M did not want to come there? The reason, she's sore leg injured from a fall while riding a bicycle.
When I give you news on M via telegram about my situation, my pregnancy is going on two months. But the timing of new sepedaa she fell from about a month ago. And when she says the reason, my pregnancy was the road five months. So, she gave the reason that is not appropriate. Because I sent a telegram had gone about three months. Although she did not want to help me, but she did not hate me.
I once met an accident SNGi we were at our parents house, He delivered the words of M belongs to me. M said: "marriage, marriage itself, which is delicious alone, when ill because of pregnancy, why ask for help me ..?" I do not know why she hated me. Though she did not hate me. Apparently she hates me, because she no jealousy in me.
I entered in the pregnancy to six months, I am sorry, because my sister who first had died after suffering from diabetes, the age of 45 years. I heard the news by telegram. Instantly, I became weak. I am very sad because I can not mourn. She lived in the city of Samarinda. Approximately ten years, we have not met. Though she and her family planned to return to our parents house.
In the pregnancy I entered the seventh month, we held an event called "tingkeban". Her show is very simple, just hold a joint prayer, by handing out food of rice and side-pauknya. We do not carry out the ritual, unlike what is usually done by family nobility. Its implementation in the house my father and mother in law. This tradition is held only on the child's first pregnancy only.
Tingkeban this event, held on at 19.30 tonight (7:30 PM). After the event, I came into the room to rest. Because I feel tired, then I woke up and headed to the bathroom. At the well, and I saw Nining Endang was washing dishes, glasses and other equipment while talking to me about bad things. They do not realize that I was listening to their conversation, Endang said in a voice full of hatred: "I sleep ..! Sleep again ..! "
They have planted seeds of hatred in my heart. They should think, so they can understand my situation who are sick. Why did they not say to be honest, if they did not like me? Why not just tell my husband to divorce me? What have I rested two times in a day? I'm sleeping over at 11.00 until 12.00 noon, then at around 14:00 I lie again? I am not a slacker!
Their words made me hurt, until I cry. I sat on a bench on the front porch, I sat alone, holding my rosary prayer "Nur Nubuwwah" in the heart. Then my husband out ruamh and sat next to me. When I want to kill myself, because I hated myself. I ignored my husband. Then I got up and walked over to the dark place that many of the trees.
The place is located in front of the house and near a dry river and lots of rocks. In that place, I was silent, but a moment later, my husband followed me and took my hand to take me into the house, but I do not want to. Because I want to be outside. I want to calm my heart is troubled.
We sat on the front porch. Actually I was afraid if they see the dark, especially alone. Suddenly my husband took me into the house. Because my husband smelled the carrion that makes her uncomfortable. He said that in genuk cemetery not far from where we lived, there was the corpse of a woman who just two days buried in that place.
The body of the woman, while his work as a midwife. She died after undergoing an appendectomy. Previously, she was dead, was buried in another cemetery. Then moved to the cemetery genuk. That story scared me, especially I also smell the carcass. And my state of being pregnant. Perhaps his spirit will persuade me to commit suicide. Finally, I want to get into the house.
Pregnancy until I entered the age of four months, I would occasionally throw up at night, but I still feel nauseated. Although my situation is very weak, but I tried to serve her husband. I continue to work to cook food to eat every day needs. At that time, I still hope that M will come to my residence. I hope she would come help me, so she wanted to serve my needs. Incidentally she has not been able to work to make money.
I walked up to the age of five months pregnant, I still hope she comes. I always love and hope she comes, until I heard the sound of each gate is opened, then I looked out of the house. But many times I was disappointed, because that comes not M, but a guard's office. Finally I came home my parents. I asked why M did not want to come there? The reason, she's sore leg injured from a fall while riding a bicycle.
When I give you news on M via telegram about my situation, my pregnancy is going on two months. But the timing of new sepedaa she fell from about a month ago. And when she says the reason, my pregnancy was the road five months. So, she gave the reason that is not appropriate. Because I sent a telegram had gone about three months. Although she did not want to help me, but she did not hate me.
I once met an accident SNGi we were at our parents house, He delivered the words of M belongs to me. M said: "marriage, marriage itself, which is delicious alone, when ill because of pregnancy, why ask for help me ..?" I do not know why she hated me. Though she did not hate me. Apparently she hates me, because she no jealousy in me.
I entered in the pregnancy to six months, I am sorry, because my sister who first had died after suffering from diabetes, the age of 45 years. I heard the news by telegram. Instantly, I became weak. I am very sad because I can not mourn. She lived in the city of Samarinda. Approximately ten years, we have not met. Though she and her family planned to return to our parents house.
In the pregnancy I entered the seventh month, we held an event called "tingkeban". Her show is very simple, just hold a joint prayer, by handing out food of rice and side-pauknya. We do not carry out the ritual, unlike what is usually done by family nobility. Its implementation in the house my father and mother in law. This tradition is held only on the child's first pregnancy only.
Tingkeban this event, held on at 19.30 tonight (7:30 PM). After the event, I came into the room to rest. Because I feel tired, then I woke up and headed to the bathroom. At the well, and I saw Nining Endang was washing dishes, glasses and other equipment while talking to me about bad things. They do not realize that I was listening to their conversation, Endang said in a voice full of hatred: "I sleep ..! Sleep again ..! "
They have planted seeds of hatred in my heart. They should think, so they can understand my situation who are sick. Why did they not say to be honest, if they did not like me? Why not just tell my husband to divorce me? What have I rested two times in a day? I'm sleeping over at 11.00 until 12.00 noon, then at around 14:00 I lie again? I am not a slacker!
Their words made me hurt, until I cry. I sat on a bench on the front porch, I sat alone, holding my rosary prayer "Nur Nubuwwah" in the heart. Then my husband out ruamh and sat next to me. When I want to kill myself, because I hated myself. I ignored my husband. Then I got up and walked over to the dark place that many of the trees.
The place is located in front of the house and near a dry river and lots of rocks. In that place, I was silent, but a moment later, my husband followed me and took my hand to take me into the house, but I do not want to. Because I want to be outside. I want to calm my heart is troubled.
We sat on the front porch. Actually I was afraid if they see the dark, especially alone. Suddenly my husband took me into the house. Because my husband smelled the carrion that makes her uncomfortable. He said that in genuk cemetery not far from where we lived, there was the corpse of a woman who just two days buried in that place.
The body of the woman, while his work as a midwife. She died after undergoing an appendectomy. Previously, she was dead, was buried in another cemetery. Then moved to the cemetery genuk. That story scared me, especially I also smell the carcass. And my state of being pregnant. Perhaps his spirit will persuade me to commit suicide. Finally, I want to get into the house.
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