The Story of My Struggle - Part 19

Praise to the Lord at that time which has given consciousness soul of the father before he died. Until he could understand the words of what I say to mententramkan his heart, "Paa ... I'm saying Daddy, will I reply to people who have been hurt daddy. Believe me ... papa, who mastered the Judgement of God. Paa ..., I dreamed of seeing poor grieving mother thought that was gone. Then I said, "Paa .... Papa do not be sad, Daddy was the most in the care of God Worldwide. "

Since the father and mother had gone, I often pensive commemorate the suffering of our family life. Almost every day I cry. My heart sank turbulent arise proverbial hot lava in the bowels of the earth. I really hate against those who have hurt me. But if I remember the death, arising out of pity and I forgive their mistakes. But I do not want to hang out with them, except the brother of my own family.

Sometimes a sense of revenge led to a sense of desire to be the abundant treasures. It can not deny that wealth is a supporter at the level of social status. But sometimes I do not care about the degree, if I think, if my life was in the woods alone. But when considering their will be an insult to me and my family, then I want my degree of the highest among them.

If I was tired at work taking care of housework, the result appears angry with me. If I recall the words of my mother-in-law, and my three younger brothers. They always have something to talk about what they considered bad for me to view them, if they visited my residence. There must be that they complain to their mother. Until something of what they consider bad, will be made in the talk and innuendo.

Since Mom died, I tried changing my appearance. Every time I go out of the house, I wear Muslim dress. And during my stay at the home office, I never hang out with the neighbors, but there are important things. In my spare time, I prefer sleeping in the room. Sometimes I meditate for mententramkan heart and my mind is turbulent because of a great spiritual war.

At the time my father died, I forget what was in katakana by Sp, that SNH has menyantet him three times. Although at that time my brother gathered together at our parents house. But I might not reveal the problem, at the time the family was in mourning. I do not want to quarrel arose between us. I am waiting for the right time to talk about it.

On a day SNH came to where I live, in my memory in October 2003. Each comes, he along with his son riding a motorcycle. In the living room, I asked about the SP accused him of witchcraft. Then he menyatakn that the SP had turned into a dog. I was shocked and I said, "That's because my prayer to prove the truth that he was using to me!"

If I thought, I can hardly believe it. I really pray maghrib prayer time and Sahalat Isha and also at midnight, in order to make the SP in a dog no more in 40 days, as evidence that he had use for me. But if within a period of 40 days, he did not change mean I'm wrong accusations. Unfortunately, I do not know when it happened. On 27 March 2003, I dreamed of fighting with the dog and I tore his mouth.

According to the story of M, that on Thursday, Friday night, around 23:00 hours, M heard a dog howling while mendengur a knock the door. But M was afraid to open the door. SP told about the incident the next day he had just had last night. Initially at about 23:00 hours the night, the SP in a dog lick on the leg. The dog is coming from the west. After the dog lick it, then the dog ran toward the east. It happened on the path behind his house.

After the incident lasted more than 7 years old, I recently asked these events on M. But why would the story be different? First he said SNH and SNG, that SP is the Dog. But M SP said that her voice changed like a dog, then he came home would ask the M. He knocked on the door, calling, "Buu ... please ..." But he's worried too, perhaps M saw it, and he meditated on the elementary school behind the house. Up before dawn he was healed.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 18

In March of 2003, my parents came home. Get there as usual I sat down to rest a while in the living room. Then I went to dad's room. But the father out of his room and stood in the corner near the window. He eyes sharp and seemed to keep a sense of anger. So I said to He, "Istighfar (There is no strength and effort, but only with your help,, O God ...)" then the father replied "You know what?"

One day I was surprised to hear the news from SNH. He said that the father was almost in the mayhem by Mr. Sunaryo with a sickle mower. Because the father intends to take the tree cassava tubers belonging He. Father would starve because M is less attention to He. Moreover, M has had a baby. There could be more shocking news. E said, that he had attempted suicide with his own neck with a belt hook. Luckily the two events, the SP and the help He saw.

That day I did not go home to visit his father, but a few days later my new home. I arrived there straight home and Sp immediately out of his room to greet me in the potion. Suddenly he said to me, "Mas SNH menyantet me up 3 times, I will reply later!" But I did not bother greeting He. I went straight to my father's room. Incidentally the door open. I saw my father was asleep in the supine position.

Circumstances dad made me cry. He is very skinny body to form bones visible. Her skin was a lot of black stains former itching disease. In addition to the father, I was sleeping on his stomach while he ate bananas fed boiled I had brought from home. My father knew when he invited me to speak, my father just said nothing, but he tears flowed, It seems sad to see my dad cry, saying, "Pa ... How many more times I met papa ..?"

In front of my father's door, Sp stood staring at us, saying to tell the two events in the natural father. He said that he saw even though the distance is far. He sees with the heart's eye he. When he said, I still did not respond he, because my mind was drawn to the Father. But even so, I was also thinking about the words of Sp that he menyantet SNH to 3 times, "I do not know what happened ..?"

On August 12, 2003, my husband received the news over the phone, that my father had died sata. I am very sad to hear that. But my husband just grateful. Said he, that my father is better to die than suffer his life miserable. But not for me, I want God to give me the opportunity to redeem the suffering of my father. If at that time I had become rich and have a home, I would invite my father to live with me.

That day I left to return to my parents' house. But it got there I was very disappointed, because the father already was buried. Why not wait for me to come? I got there around 12:00 hours Day and the father was buried around at 10.00 morning. Only two hours, maybe my brother probably worried I was crying and screaming. My father died from his face crushed in roll mattress over his head. Until my father's hard to breathe.

Next I went to the tomb of his father, in between by SNH. Up on the tomb of my father, I cried. I wanted to unload his grave, so I can see the face of the father for the last time. I tried to hold my heart pain and trying not to scream until my dad called. I do not accept the father neglected. Fathers should not suffer, because the father had a salary pension is more than enough.

There I stayed for seven days, because we held a joint prayer performed on every night for seven nights in a row. Implementation is in two places. Prayer that is done on the father's grave near sunset. And prayer is done in house at night. According to our belief, it is obliged to pray for his soul of the deceased, so they saved the world and the hereafter.

Already from the first time since my mother was alive, every time my father fought with Mom, Dad always said "Want Dead". Because the father was very disappointed to have children SNG, very rebellious against his father and mother. Until He eventually went mad. When mother was alive, dad can be patient and surrender to God. But after my mother died, my father no longer hold back the burden of suffering until the father tried to commit suicide. I'm not crying over the departure of the father, but suffering.

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The Story of My Struggle - Part 17

Back when my mother and father still alive, I came home my parents every two to three months. I am very sad, because every time I go there I see the state of a dirty house, even dirty clothes piled on leave in place for days. I have always been understanding and I wash my dirty clothes. M is the children who are not devoted to Mom and Dad. She did not want to wash his own clothes, despite being in junior high school, until She adults.
As usual every time I go home to my parents, who first met my Mom and Dad of course. But after my mother died, my father became senile and sometimes a bit grumpy. It makes me afraid to approach the father. After the death of the mother passed about a year, the attitude of my father to be changed. My father became disregard my presence. M said that his father was always angry every day, making him perhaps worried M into M's room and slammed the baby belongs to M.
Mother's death I have made my father's life more miserable, until my father became senile. I share his pain. It makes me want to live with Dad, so I can care for and serve the needs of his life as before, when I have not married. I am also very sad to lose my mother. I was not satisfied to give happiness to the SHE. I also want him happy, but I do not want to stay with me.
Sincerity and love of my saying to my mother and father also to my brother, make the Lord bestows His love and facilitate all my business. There is one thing that I did not realize about a miracle. But precisely M is aware of and acknowledge it. She was surprised and asked me, "Why does every MBA Titi (I) To a cloudy weather here certainly could turn into the light?", When She asked me not to answer, but my heart said, "What's Right?".
Since I experienced voodoo, I was afraid if I was at my parents house. Every time I want to go there, I would ask SNH to He came there, to accompany me for 1 night stay there. Often I want to see my father and brother, but I imagine the atmosphere of fear when a house there, Till I sleep my heart saying, "I want to go home alone, but I feel strange."
I feel the atmosphere in the house, and in the surrounding area has turned into creepy. Makes me not like to stay there long. Actually I feel very happy when I'm hanging out with family. They are also very happy to see me coming. Moreover, every time I come, I always bring food and give something of what they need, even things that I provide is not worth the expensive.
On September 12, 2002, M gave birth to a baby girl. After giving birth her baby M, M to go home and live permanently in our parents' house with her husband. Pertengahahn In December 2002, I visited my father and brother. But get there, I can not meet his father and SNG, because they spent all day in their rooms and would not open the door to her room. Until the time I'm going home, I'm not good-bye to them.
There I was chatting with Sp in the living room. He told me, "A Pilgrimage Although, if people of West Java, it's like menyantet." Apparently He still harbored anger at the late Father who has made the Hajj Amak He vomited blood. Later He rose from his chair and walked over in front of me without permission, saying, "I seek the truth", I do not know the truth of what He was looking for.
In January 2003, SNH came to my residence. He told me that he did not intend to harm Sp. He just simply follow what is suggested by Father Amak Hajj. The main, M can be broken up with Sp. M always replied, "What if I'm pregnant?" In fact they still love relationship until they are married and have children.
Sp is the one that can not be trusted his words. Told me that Sp give advice, on M so that SNG who suffer from mental illness at any given poison. M convey these suggestions to SNH. SNH Advice from Sp making angry, then asked again about it in Sp. But He did not acknowledge his words. He said bawha, if M does not believe in the Sp will marry M, then if necessary Sp will give poison to his wife Sp.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 16

As I recall in January 2003, my brother SNH, come to my residence. He tells about the actual events that have been experienced M and Sp. Before they were married. Apparently Sp. Had lied to me, because what is at katakannya different from what is in katakana SNH. He also lied to me and to M.
Sp has been slandering my father, he said that the father would rape M, just because my father came into the room M is committed lewdness. At that time my father was so angry he knew Sp often came into the room to do the nasty. Then the father rushed into the room to beat, but the father sarong accidental falls apart. Then in regard it would rape M. It is unlikely bejad unscrupulous father.
Sp on charges of slander father is, but M has always believed and defended Sp. He has been allied with the devil to deceive dayai M. Consequently M feel frightened and worried about perhaps a true time happened to him, M considers Sp. Is the only person who can protect themselves from any possibility of bad things that can be done by her father and brother SNG.
According to the story SNH, that He has invited M to go to the city of Cirebon to treat of the influence of black magic M's Sp. M must be cured so that is no longer in love with Sp. Because love is not fair. They bring in smart people Supranatural science. The person named Mr. Haji Amak. Now he has been late.
To Haji Amak, M told me everything, from the initial meeting with the Sp and the threats that will use M to M that can not be married to another man, but only with Sp. He even raped her until the butter until it becomes a habit for He. Every Day and night He met M, He would invite intercourse. M is powerless to resist.
M told me that SHE can see the various forms of the devil after the swabs in the face by Sp. She became frightened and in need of protection in Sp. In addition, She is also afraid of the threat. M told me, crying makes you feel very sorry for Amak Hajj, and patting the shoulder of M. He said, "yes Sp devil himself."
In the presence of Mr Haji M Amak promised not to touch with Sp. He then gave a handful of yellow rice that have been placed on the plastic. He suggested that the yellow rice at Tabor on the porch and in the yard of the way through Sp, so He stepped over yellow rice. The goal is to provide retaliation.
At night, SNH and M sprinkled the yellow rice. Then they waited for the arrival of Sp. They wondered what was going to wait for future events. Not long after Sp came and suddenly he's getting dizzy and vomited blood. Genitals feel excruciating pain as it is attractive. Then he meditated and then cured.
In June 2003, I went to the town P to see my father and brother. I promise to your brother SNH to meet there. Back home, my father was with her door locked, and I do not want to wake up father, also brother SNG that the situation is crazy. He would not open the door of darkness, unless it was given to eat and drink by M or my sister, SNGI.
I waited for my brother SNH came while chatting with Sum, She is a woman neighbor who happened to be there next to the house. She tells of events in the natural M. M and her husband had been away from home because the father kicked. They rented house in the village Glintang. Gestational age at that time M had entered the 6th month.
Sum told my father the situation after the leave of M. There is certainly no longer serving a senile father and brother SNG who suffer mental illness. M does give supplies of food staples. SNG although mentally ill, but he would cook for her own meal. He may not serve the father. Whereas M's father to visit every single week, the father must starve for days.
It was very heart Sp M and her husband, their father eat the money retirees. Time Sp divorced from his wife, and when he married M, all costs from the money my father. They are abandoning father. They turned my father and brother every single week. Until my father's father a few times from hunger and wandering into a neighbor's house around naked without clothing.




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The Story of My Struggle - Part 15

Friday February 15th, my brother M came to my place, She let me know that She has been married to Sp, on Thursday on February 7th, 2022. I was surprised because SHE did not give the news to me, turns out SHE has to give the news to my husband over the phone, but my husband purposely did not tell on me. I am very sad and sorry because I really love my sister, M.
M honestly say that SHE was pregnant 3 months. However, I do not blame M, because She was powerless resist his passion Sp. Sp has shamed our family. Sp are poor people with low education, but He has black magic, which makes M fell in love with He. Even to make M can not think clearly to consider the good and bad.
Time M associated with Sp, Sp status is still tied knot with his wife, He. He was much older age of 14 years from AD In fact, much older age, it's not a problem. The main one is whether the man was able to give material and spiritual happiness? He already had a child 9. Work only a shepherd He ducks, and worked odd jobs. Black science, not useful because it can not make him rich, but remain poor.
Sp can easily subdue my father because my father in a state of dementia, so that my father bless their marriage. If only, I'm not senile father circumstances, surely my father will never approve of their relationship. Because my father was a very idealistic person included in determining a candidate companion of life for their children. M can not uphold the degree of the family, but it has dropped the dignity of our family.
Basically, the dignity of our family has fallen and polluted, due to the second act of my brother who often quarrel which eventually led to quarrels between the father and mother. Moreover, the state of my older brother who had the initials SNG became insane. So, how could I not pray and hope someday to find a man M companion who can uphold the degree of the family.
Day of week, date of June 23th, 2002 we moved to the City AB. I followed my husband to move the task in the city. I register my child, ALB in elementary school, and YBK, in school kindergarten. Our emigration to a new place makes me happy at least, where I am in a new place may slightly reduce the fear I long to be able to gradually recover.
In the first few months, I still feel scared if I was going to the bathroom or kitchen that is located in the back, I still fear that if there are bats that flew over and passed near me. I am afraid that bats will attack me. Therefore, I always ask for transfer to the bathroom. At night when I sleep, my heart says in the Java language, which means "It should not be in between."
From the beginning I hit the spell, I love to hear tapes of the song "Love Apostle" which in sung by Haddad Alwi and Sulis. Poems speak Arabic, but I did not understand the Arabic language. But I like the rhythm of the song and the music, which can make me cry and shortness of breath. Especially on the screen there is an image of a VCD is thin and elderly men. I remember my father suffering.
Many times I thought about the supernatural events that I experienced. I do not really believe what a variety of events that I experienced it all real? I'm not sure there is one tasbeh that without me knowing it was curled up on my neck. What I have put it, but I forget? Why I do not feel it? If I had put it, obviously not possible, because I always use when making dhikr fingers to count the prayers that I say.
What I think about my beliefs on one occasion, at one event finally happened again the same. Perhaps these events, as discernment of God that I feel confident that the events that I experienced was very real to happen. At the time I finished praying maghrib, I took off mukena, without me knowing there is one tasbeh the same. Though these tasbeh I keep in cupboard.

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The Story of My Struggle - Part 14

--> This is the choice of my dreams in September 2001 to June 2002:
My dream to see the barren nature, and I saw a human-faced bats. And my heart said, "The vampire has arrived in Jakarta."
Dream I saw two of the swing ride and 2 children swing the line of sight. And my heart says (in Javanese) "Keluargane arep in pipili Satan"
Dream I saw in the sky 2 adults and 2 children fighting teenagers also are fighting. And my heart said, "A fight with Master Teacher, Students by Students."
Dream I saw in the sky there are people stealing and robbing. And my heart said, "Cut off his hand one of them."
My dream to see ourselves wearing green dress and shawl, and my heart said, "I'm flying free."
At the time I sleep, I heard someone told me, "There must be a faculty assessment huh? In order not to regret. "
I dream to see the two white-tailed macaques are both located on the banks of the river and opposite. Which is opposite the eastern approach me, and then the monkey-naburkan sowing of rice yellow to get to the other side of the river. And my heart said, "This is for you, and this for me."
My dream to see the stars varying colors, and then assemble themselves in a semicircle. The series stars dropped down and fell into my hands, then a series of stars is I put it with my hands stretched out. Surprisingly, the series stars are turned into a rainbow-colored scarf, and my heart said, "Nyi Roro Kidul shawl."
My dream is to see the world like coming to an end. I saw the waves is very large, I walked into the deserted market. I saw a man, he's my supernatural spiritual teacher. He sat on the bench waiting for me. I went and met an angel who also was waiting for me. I would sit at his feet, but the angels do not want to. The angel took out a white paper and read it. I heard a voice chanting the verses of the Qur'an.
I dream of being in a room that was at a meeting held the clergy. I sat in the front row and I was the only woman. In front of me there is an ecclesiastic who was lecturing, I said to him, "A good leader is God." At the same time, there was a man about to speak to Mr. Alim scholars looked toward the man. At that time, I see above there is a black cap rock that drops down straight into my body through the head. I lay my body on the table, as I said many times without any noise due to difficulty speaking "incarnated Bung Karno." Then I realized and knew I was sitting next to a guy and I said "I am an option, should not talk so much ? "
I dream in the middle of the forest, I ran because of fear in the chase of two bats. I repeatedly called "God" for help. Then came two white doves flew toward me and turned into two beautiful angel, angel one adult and one child. The second angel brought me to fly, and before I know I have been in a very tall tree. I saw one house and in front of the house, there is a long-haired man was standing. He admitted Gajahmada duke. I am not rude to be on top, then I fell down. Then he said to me, "What has been done evil to the family's Sp. ? Yes, I'll be there! "
I dream to be in a room. In these places, many men. They are sitting in school boarding school. I am sitting with a male leader of the boarding school, and he seemed about to do obscene to me. I am afraid he and his disciples to rape me. Then I look for reasons to be out of place. There are a student who came to help me and take me flying across the river that many crocodile. I saw someone who was helping people who are in the crocodile swallow. I took two pictures The clergy man, but I do not know who they are.
I dream of seeing in the sky and white clouds shaped arab "GOD". The letter went downstairs and into my body through the head. So that makes my body vibrate.
I dream to see the sky a little overcast and there was a flash of black. Then the black cloud is transformed into a white cloud, then changed again to green, then turns into an expanse of grass and beautiful flowers. I saw a bunch of flowers which the various colors fall from the sky and fell into my hands.
I dream with the power of heart and mind I can see Heaven. In Heaven I see the clear water that was in a lot of sandy shore. The beautiful sand because sand is a sparkling diamond.
I dream to see the two bags of one original and one not. The original bag contains one gem, then I rubbed the stone. With the way the swab, then exit two genie. I asked the second genie, with the same question, "What's your name?"; Which one replied, "Servant of Noble", then I asked the other, "Who namau?"; The other replied, "Dewi Sri" . And my heart Says  "Hinduism and Islam will unite."
I dream my husband and I were in the house in the sky. I saw the sky above drops down to make me scared. When my hands reach out, the sky was like a sheet of clear plastic with no color.
At bedtime my heart said, "There will come a Prophet of Women."
I dream the stairs into the church. Inside the church, I saw many people who were praying in a way prostrate, And I saw a statue of the cross without Jesus.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 13

On Saturday, 10 September 2001 at around 3:40 PM, I received word from my husband's sister in law that my man, Sudigna died of traffic accidents. I instinctively felt weak. I do not believe that he had died. It turns out what I think that I will receive bad news, finally does happen. The sound is in fact true ravens brought news of death.

That day I have not been able to mourn, because I still limp. The next Sunday, with a rented car with driver, my family and go wake. Our first stop in the village of Pangkah, in private homes that have not been so perfect and yet Mr. Sudigna family occupied. Home Office in the City Slawi. There we did not meet with his family. His wife and children went to take care of accident insurance.

There, we did not meet with his family, but we met with a guard office where the late Father Sudigna work. We talked for a while, standing in the yard office. We talked about the events of the accident.We then proceeded to the City of Pekalongan, to meet Mr. HDF, but we did not meet with him, then we went home. 
On the way home, after the evening we meet obstacles. On the hills along the road came a very thick fog. Headlights could not penetrate the thick fog. Therefore, my husband got out of the car to guide the driver to drive with caution, because the right of the road, there is a very deep abyss. Finally, we got home around 10:00 PM 
God gave me instructions through dreams. If there are things I do not know, then I think. As in the time before and after I was exposed to the influence of witchcraft.

 The following are my dreams while staying in the city of BM.I thought and said to myself "If the Earth is constantly spinning? Later how to write numbers annually, if run out of numbers to count? "Oddly enough when I sleep soundly, my heart said," The sun will be extinguished within 3 Billion Years again ".At the time I thought, 'Oh my God, why hast thou given me continuous test of life? "So that night I was dreaming. I dream seeing heavens one above another. I look at every level of the sky filled with pictures of me. I had long hair and a four-handed. There are pictures and drawings kite cat. I see the sky every level, from first to third, I said "I became Queen, I became Queen, I became Queen." 
"My dream is running and I crossed those beggars dressed in rags, and their groups." 
"The dream I saw a white cloud in the sky there is a form of exquisite carvings sting." 
"My dream to see the sky there are clouds shaped white stripes song rhythm tone musical notes." 
"Dreams in the sky there is a white cloud-shaped gate and the royal throne of Kings, beneath which there are 
two rows of people who were sitting cross-legged with each other face to face." 
"My dream was frightened to see the sky at the bottom." (Twice a dream) 
"My dream see the smoke swirling down from the sky. From the smoke, get out a lot of very scary-faced 
demon. " 
"The dream I saw a large spherical planetary objects that glow so bright my eyes, and the ball fell in front of 
me." 
"My dream to see the sky there was a picture of me holding my son, Yoga Brahmacharya Kumaraseta." 
"My dream as he lightly ran my hands holding a rope from the sky with followed by a man behind. Then my heart said, "Holding the Rope of Allah" ...


 
Dream after I was married, and lived with families in the city of Banyumas, among others: 
"My dream to see the sky there is a large picture of a man Long-haired and dressed in red. Images are moved from the east towards the west. " 
"My dream to see the sky there is a light that continues to go down on my head, and the light is radiating to my right hand. Then I saw in the palm of my right hand there are bubbles of water. " 
"My dream to see the hills. Then my heart said, "It was a journey of Prophet Muhammad" 
"My dream to see the sky there are many islands. Then I said, "The Prophet Muhammad will descend to earth to help his people." 
"My dream walking on the sky, and I crossed the street with people carrying a stretcher, in which there are people lying down because of illness. Then my heart said, "The Prophet Muhammad is sick, will be treated." 
"My dream was given a small package by someone who I could not see his face. Before he left, and then he said, "This titipannya Prophet Muhammad." 
"My dream to see the sky there is light, the light continues to come down and get into my body. Then my heart said, "Candidates for the prince." 
"My dream to see the Moon is very close to the earth. I look at the Earth with the Moon, there was an astronaut flying. Down toward the earth. He fell in front of me and asked, "Where torn white paper ?..." Instantly, I pointed flakes berserakkan white paper on the ground. Then I took it one by one, and I gave her the Flakes.


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The Story of My Struggle - Part 12

From the beginning I was bored reading it, just like when I read Scripture. Both these books are equally difficult for me to understand. To my mind, that God is one. But in the translation of the book of the Qur'an there is the word "We", not "I". We are the Compound and the word "I" is "Single".
I also can not understand the verses in the Gospels. Because there are "three gods" to be in worship. For me God is a substance that stands alone. No beginning and no end. Prophet Jesus Christ, Mother Mary and the Angels are God's creation. They can not create anything.
Although I am tired of reading the translation of the Qur'an, but I tried to read it through. For me any clues of the Book is not important. Course of my life either, quite in the given advice by my parents. Man's moral perfection is not in the measure of the ability of a person's mind to memorize the verses of the Qur'an, and other books.
Since adolescence, I was able to think about the truth. The important thing my life does not harm others. And I tried to be a human being useful for many people. I always remember the death, old age and illness, natural disasters and calamities vehicle traffic accident or because of other consequences.
More than a month I suffered because I could not sleep. Until my eyes sore, having to fight the sleep I stay awake. I am so tired my body and soul. Until I lost weight, but a sense of revenge, the hurt that makes me have a passion to fast for more than 6 months.
Every evening ahead of time, I became increasingly frightened. So I rang the voice guidance cassette tape with verses of the Qur'an, although I do not know what that means. After I finished the prayer in the evening, then I read the translation of the letter Ya'sin. But all that does not make the Devils stopped bothering me. 

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The Story of My Struggle - Part 11

Although I was in the middle of my husband's family, but me and my two children remained in fear. ALB beraknya my child in my pants, not as usual, he also fell out of bed until his lips cracked and bleeding. I became worried about the safety of my child.
On Wednesday at around 11:00 P.M. when I was about to take water wells. I heard a crow perched on a durian tree. I thought and said, "The bird is carrying the news of death, Who died?"
On Friday, at about 3:00 AM, I, with my father-in-law Sup. and Nin (my younger sister) sitting in the dining room as he talked, I told Nining about what was happening to me.
Somehow when I say "I'm scared because I was in voodoo people". She said: "The reason is what? Why in witchcraft? Definitely got the error." I replied "No ..!!!" She did not believe, then I say "Yes, do not believe." She kept answering "Yes, crazy people. Exempt Mr. Tejo and Linga Yoga also (ALB and YBK)" I replied, "Yoga Linga and join you." She said, "No, your children, naughty."
She makes my words hurt, until I burst into tears. And I immediately hugged both his feet, with me saying "Sir, I feel very lonely even though I was given two children a handsome, funny and smart, also devoted husband."
At that time, Mr. Suparmin not blame Nining. But he said only entertaining, patting my shoulder. He said: "You are my son, you're like my own kids." I was silent, and Nining out some where. Until the next thing I knew She had gone home.
On Saturday at about 4:00 PM, my husband came to see me. The arrival of my husband made me and my two children very happy. Fear me and my children, slightly reduced. In my husband, I did not tell you about my quarrel with Nining events.
Sunday morning, I was with my husband and my two children went to the city center. We stopped by the house my husband's uncle and aunt. Along the way I left and went home, I am always wary. I am afraid of an accident probably caused by the act of Satan.
Sunday night, when the afternoon, Widarto (younger brother-in-law I), came home from traveling out of nowhere. At the same time, Doni (son of Widarto) was crying in her lap Wahyuni ​​(She DJ). When I wanted to go to my room, crossed Widarto near the table. Spontaneous very loudly banged the table, saying, "It's the Devil Dog!"
I certainly was surprised, I entered the room, kept me out into the next room where the DJ was crying. I intend to compose. I said to Wahyuni, "The patient. Widarto its hard as Mr. Tejo, my husband." Just a moment, then I quit.
When I was in the living room, Widarto said to me, "Do not take care of my child, take care of your own son! People mba Titi, his mind mbrayang" (mbrayang = digress). I re-entered the room to accompany my two children are sleeping.
What Widarto said was very painful for me. What have I done? I am in tremendous fear. I need protection. So I dhikr, and I rang the tapes recitation of the Qur'an. Although I have no idea what it means.
At midnight, Widarto sounding tape recorder with a very, very loud voice. He seems to deliberately disrupt the sleep of two of my children, and also so that I can not sleep in peace. What is the reason to hate me? I've given him money for my life and my two children.
The next day Monday, September 06th, 2001, I ask you please to a woman named Budi to call my husband over the phone to my husband immediately picked me up to go home. For my gratitude, I gave a packet of milk powder Budi. I came home with a sick heart.
I feel calm left behind with her husband, but my fears have not disappeared. Tremendous sense of fear mixed with a sense of hurt over the humiliation of my two younger brothers, made me get closer to "God Almighty" As always, each evening, I read the letter Ya-sin.
The next day, Tuesday, September 07th, 2001, I fasted and for the first time I read a translation of the Book Al-Qur'an. I am very curious, if the Qur'an? The day was clear blue sky to the limit without eyes to last for about six months. During that time I fasted, except when my menstruation for six days.

TO BE Continued. . . . . .

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